HAPPYFISHZ

There was a meet a few weeks after that and I was running against the best runner, Ong Sin Yao. Negative thoughts were the only things in my mind at the point of time but once again my Coach's words changed me. '' When you think that you''re are going to lose, you will. But if you stay positive and just go out there and run your own race, you will definitely run well, stay positive!'' That's what he said to me and that's what I'm telling all my juniors now. Yeah! :)

Ok back to the story, there's also many other meets but i shall just fast forward it to Nationals.I was selected to run the 200m, 400m and both the relays. I was running against all the best in Singapore but I was confident of getting into the 400m finals which was my main objective. Yup, I managed to get into the 400m finals but the day before the finals, I ran in the 4x100m semi-finals and pulled my right hamstring. On the day itself, it felt just like a slight pull and I would be fine the next day and ready to compete in the 400m finals. But things didn't turn out the way i expected, the pain was worse on the day i woke up. What was worse was that I'm the only one from our school competing on the day, I needed my friends' encouragement but there was none. No one knew i was in pain. I just wanted to get to the Stadium quickly and look for my coach, hoping that he would know how to make me feel better, but he was late that day. I had to warm-up myself that day and I got emotional in the call room as I was in pain and even though Ms Glenda Chia tried to help, it didn't work.... Things changed when I'm at the starting line, the announcer started introducing the runners, I heard my coach and Mrs Lena Tiu's voice and that has made me feel so so so much better. I finished the race 4th with a time of 56.90s. Also finishing my Nationals as a 200m and 4x400m finalist, 4x100 semi-finalist!

May2011, my coach brought me to Malacca to compete with some other fantastic athletes whom i have huge respect for. Even though I was still injured and didn't clock a good timing, it was a really good experience for me.

Through this season, I have improved so much as a runner but what really made me remember this season was the things I have achieved even though it was difficult and most importantly, how my coach has managed to change me, not physically but mentally and becoming a better person.

Season 3
Season 3 wasn't good for me at all as I didn't clock a single personal best but it was this season where I found the true reason why I love running so much. It's this season where I realize running is not all about the achievements, it's also about what it teaches us and how it changed us. Ok, I''ll elaborate more.

2012, one of my worst year in school. I felt really bad inside me because of certain things including my school results. I was worried about many things but I didn't want to tell anyone, I trusted no one. So i kept all my thoughts and feelings to myself. It's probably because of the things I kept to myself made me realize that running actually clears my mind when I run. I just totally forget about the troubles for a moment. Even when i stop running, it still made me feel better and allowed me to make wiser decisions in my life.

It was also the year where my coach left to work somewhere else. So there's a new coach, Kelvin Quah! I was not used to it, I didn't like it, I was upset about why he had to leave. I just felt that he should have just stayed till 2013. After much thoughts, there was nothing wrong for him to leave, nothing wrong for him to find a job with higher pay and he was getting married that year( i think) hahah so i guess he needed money.
Well, about the new coach, I didn't like the way he talked and I felt like he was always against me as i had to do a 400m sprint even when i make a sound when he talks. Actually, he just wanted to make me improve more hahah. There was also one occasion where he scolded me and i gave him attitude but he wasn't angry, he shared with me his past and told me this, ''In this world, not everything goes the way you want it to be. Just suck it up do what you have to do.'' Wow, with this quote he told me, I started liking him because he was like Coach Roger. They are teaching me skills in life. Oh and he left the school after 3-4 months due to his work i guess. For the first time, I'm without a coach during the November and December holidays and I actually do the same workout 2-3 times a week for like 5-6 weeks. That's so boring. hahahah

Season 4
Olevels year and most probably the last year I'm going to represent my school so i was determined to break my personal best after 2 years but i was still without a coach. HOW?!?
Thankfully, ex- bedokviewian, Afiqul came back and help us out for our individual events and the relays.
Disaster struck on the 9th of march, I sprained my right ankle and I couldn't train for weeks when Nationals are like less than a Month away?! I only gave myself around 2 weeks to rest and back to training. And somehow a miracle happened, I clocked a new personal best, 56.60s, Like finally after 2 years. I even went on to Nationals to clock more personal best.

Ok, so how has this season changed my life? Well, results, home, people has caused pain to me. Well obviously, I didn't study hard enough, no excuses. But at home, I just wish to receive a little bit of encouragement to keep me going because i'm feeling like there's not enough support for me. The words i'm getting at home are more of a negative impact. And lastly, people? or maybe person? Yup i guess many of my friends know what has happened recently. I thought things were going in the right decision with a rainbow ahead but it was not to be. I feel like shit, I couldn't focus, I couldn't do anything. Everything just seems wrong, nothing seems to be going right after it happened.

But I managed to get through all these difficulties through running. I had thoughts of leaving home and so many many other negative thoughts that i shouldn't say in case some people calls me attention seeking. I'm sure many people have felt like disappearing from this world for a moment/ forever and perhaps the world would be so much better without you? Well, I had that thought before. I just went for a run and I realize that I'm not that worthless, there's a reason why i'm here, alive. I'm here to make a difference.

Just today, Kaiser told me '' JJ, i really think you''re really strong inside.''
Maybe I am but honestly I don't think I am, no one sees me when I feel like crap. But the reason why I'm able to bring out a smile now is because of running. It gives me a reason to smile, it reminds me that I have a dream to live and work towards it.

I also want to remind everyone that there is definitely something out there that gives you a reason to smile, if you feel like there's nothing, it's just that you have yet to find it. And remember, there's a reason why you''re alive, to make a difference. :)

Alright gonna end my post here, wow that's long but it's probably full of crap.
Enjoy your long weekends guys :)

HAPPYFISHZ; 快乐鱼



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Wednesday, 14 August 2013 ❛ Mind Vs Heart ❜ The title says it all. It's your mind vs your heart. Everyday since a few weeks ago, I have been hoping that something bad would happen between certain people. That's really mean of me hahaha. I think anger and my mind just somehow took control of me. But of course, I over came this today. My heart has been telling me this for the past few weeks, " forget about it, let it go and wish them all the best." But I couldn't do it, my mind just tells me not to. My mind tells me there's no reason for me to feel this way. My mind tells me that this shouldn't have happened. My mind tells me to hate. My mind just visualized many crazy stuff. Yup, my mind told me many things and my heart only told me one . I didn't want to listen to my heart because I just felt that it's wrong. But today I did, I trust my heart and I said it. It felt kinda upsetting but overall I was proud of myself and it felt great. Didn't know that wishing someone to be happy could also make myself feel better. :) Some of you may think I have made a mistake, you guys may think that I am stupid for doing that. But think about it, what's the point of feeling that way and even hurting myself right? The only way for this world to be the way we want it to have less hate, more love. Believe it or not, I only really really really dislike one person because he didn't like me first and even talk shit about me. BQWIS. OK end of story. So the lesson today is to trust your heart even if you really don't want to, even when your mind keeps saying 'no'. Just trust your heart. Get through this stage, you''ll feel better and also proves that you are mature enough.SAYING MYSELF LA OF COURSE HAHA

Tuesday, 6 August 2013 ❛ My Life Has Changed. ❜ My life has changed. How and Why? It's definitely because of the things which have happened recently but i'm not going to talk about it. I'm actually going to talk about how running has changed my life. Yup it's about running once again, really sorry to my readers who find it boring but i''ll try my very best to make this an interesting one. Enjoy! :) I get this question very often, '' Why do you like running so much?'' And my reply will always be ''The feeling i get from it.'' Thinking about it, that's a really stupid answer so I actually asked myself that question and realize i actually have to much to talk about. Most of the answers are at season 4 but read the rest if that's not the only reason you''re here. Remember ah, SEASON 4 second paragraph onwards and all the highlighted red parts are recommended to read. Here it goes... Season1 When i was in Secondary 1, I selected Track & Field as the first choice for my CCA and obviously I got into it. At that point of time, I treated CCA as just something for me to have fun so I wasn't serious when it comes to training. I was one of the best among the Sec1s and so I didn't give my best and even ran slowly with the bigger sized people. That angered my coach, Roger Tan and he talked to me about it. I couldn't remember what he said but his words have definitely changed my training attitude. Just a few months later, I was selected to run the 400m, 4x100m and 4x400m for Nationals, the biggest competition that every student athlete look forward to. I was selected for exposure and that made me realize i have potential for running as i clocked 63s for the 400m and i have actually took some sec2s spot for the relay. Well, that's the end of my first season and after knowing that I could be a finalist for the 400m the next season, I increased my training to 3 times and week and even trained with my coach and some team mates privately during the holidays. Many times, I'm like a ' Merlion' during training, vomiting out my breakfast/ lunch but i hung on because my training partner at that time was Lim Chin Ken(51s) runner. He kept pushing me and motivating me never to stop until I have completed the workout. Really want to thank him for all the help he has given me in becoming a better runner. Season 2 January 2011, back to school and i'm still training hard as Nationals were just 3 months away. It was during this time where I realized I have improved alot after the holidays. I was one of the fittest and fastest guy out there, even faster than some sec3s and sec4s. I was kinda of proud of myself and started going for trainings late( like 10 minutes). My coach talked to me again and here's some of the words he said ''Why are you coming later for training so often, you think you are big now just because you are running fast. You have the potential but this is not going to help, stay away from the bad influence.'' Well, actually there wasn't any bad influence, I just got tempted to have fun with some people before going for training. His words changed me again. There was a meet a few weeks after that and I was running against the best runner, Ong Sin Yao. Negative thoughts were the only things in my mind at the point of time but once again my Coach's words changed me. '' When you think that you''re are going to lose, you will. But if you stay positive and just go out there and run your own race, you will definitely run well, stay positive!'' That's what he said to me and that's what I'm telling all my juniors now. Yeah! :) Ok back to the story, there's also many other meets but i shall just fast forward it to Nationals.I was selected to run the 200m, 400m and both the relays. I was running against all the best in Singapore but I was confident of getting into the 400m finals which was my main objective. Yup, I managed to get into the 400m finals but the day before the finals, I ran in the 4x100m semi-finals and pulled my right hamstring. On the day itself, it felt just like a slight pull and I would be fine the next day and ready to compete in the 400m finals. But things didn't turn out the way i expected, the pain was worse on the day i woke up. What was worse was that I'm the only one from our school competing on the day, I needed my friends' encouragement but there was none. No one knew i was in pain. I just wanted to get to the Stadium quickly and look for my coach, hoping that he would know how to make me feel better, but he was late that day. I had to warm-up myself that day and I got emotional in the call room as I was in pain and even though Ms Glenda Chia tried to help, it didn't work.... Things changed when I'm at the starting line, the announcer started introducing the runners, I heard my coach and Mrs Lena Tiu's voice and that has made me feel so so so much better. I finished the race 4th with a time of 56.90s. Also finishing my Nationals as a 200m and 4x400m finalist, 4x100 semi-finalist! May2011, my coach brought me to Malacca to compete with some other fantastic athletes whom i have huge respect for. Even though I was still injured and didn't clock a good timing, it was a really good experience for me. Through this season, I have improved so much as a runner but what really made me remember this season was the things I have achieved even though it was difficult and most importantly, how my coach has managed to change me, not physically but mentally and becoming a better person. Season 3 Season 3 wasn't good for me at all as I didn't clock a single personal best but it was this season where I found the true reason why I love running so much. It's this season where I realize running is not all about the achievements, it's also about what it teaches us and how it changed us. Ok, I''ll elaborate more. 2012, one of my worst year in school. I felt really bad inside me because of certain things including my school results. I was worried about many things but I didn't want to tell anyone, I trusted no one. So i kept all my thoughts and feelings to myself. It's probably because of the things I kept to myself made me realize that running actually clears my mind when I run. I just totally forget about the troubles for a moment. Even when i stop running, it still made me feel better and allowed me to make wiser decisions in my life. It was also the year where my coach left to work somewhere else. So there's a new coach, Kelvin Quah! I was not used to it, I didn't like it, I was upset about why he had to leave. I just felt that he should have just stayed till 2013. After much thoughts, there was nothing wrong for him to leave, nothing wrong for him to find a job with higher pay and he was getting married that year( i think) hahah so i guess he needed money. Well, about the new coach, I didn't like the way he talked and I felt like he was always against me as i had to do a 400m sprint even when i make a sound when he talks. Actually, he just wanted to make me improve more hahah. There was also one occasion where he scolded me and i gave him attitude but he wasn't angry, he shared with me his past and told me this, ''In this world, not everything goes the way you want it to be. Just suck it up do what you have to do.'' Wow, with this quote he told me, I started liking him because he was like Coach Roger. They are teaching me skills in life. Oh and he left the school after 3-4 months due to his work i guess. For the first time, I'm without a coach during the November and December holidays and I actually do the same workout 2-3 times a week for like 5-6 weeks. That's so boring. hahahah Season 4 Olevels year and most probably the last year I'm going to represent my school so i was determined to break my personal best after 2 years but i was still without a coach. HOW?!? Thankfully, ex- bedokviewian, Afiqul came back and help us out for our individual events and the relays. Disaster struck on the 9th of march, I sprained my right ankle and I couldn't train for weeks when Nationals are like less than a Month away?! I only gave myself around 2 weeks to rest and back to training. And somehow a miracle happened, I clocked a new personal best, 56.60s, Like finally after 2 years. I even went on to Nationals to clock more personal best. Ok, so how has this season changed my life? Well, results, home, people has caused pain to me. Well obviously, I didn't study hard enough, no excuses. But at home, I just wish to receive a little bit of encouragement to keep me going because i'm feeling like there's not enough support for me. The words i'm getting at home are more of a negative impact. And lastly, people? or maybe person? Yup i guess many of my friends know what has happened recently. I thought things were going in the right decision with a rainbow ahead but it was not to be. I feel like shit, I couldn't focus, I couldn't do anything. Everything just seems wrong, nothing seems to be going right after it happened. But I managed to get through all these difficulties through running. I had thoughts of leaving home and so many many other negative thoughts that i shouldn't say in case some people calls me attention seeking. I'm sure many people have felt like disappearing from this world for a moment/ forever and perhaps the world would be so much better without you? Well, I had that thought before. I just went for a run and I realize that I'm not that worthless, there's a reason why i'm here, alive. I'm here to make a difference. Just today, Kaiser told me '' JJ, i really think you''re really strong inside.'' Maybe I am but honestly I don't think I am, no one sees me when I feel like crap. But the reason why I'm able to bring out a smile now is because of running. It gives me a reason to smile, it reminds me that I have a dream to live and work towards it. I also want to remind everyone that there is definitely something out there that gives you a reason to smile, if you feel like there's nothing, it's just that you have yet to find it. And remember, there's a reason why you''re alive, to make a difference. :) Alright gonna end my post here, wow that's long but it's probably full of crap. Enjoy your long weekends guys :)

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