HAPPYFISHZ

I started my internship in school for only 2 days and I already feel so much. I feel so emotionally challenged. My heart hurts, I don't even know why. My heart hurts for the students whom I don't even know their names. It just hurts. I just wanna share about this particular incident that happened today.

Anyway, before I share. I went to look for the cleaner who used to clean my block's level 4!! I always remember talking to her about many things and its so nice to see her again!! Ok so after talking, we were walking to the canteen and while on our way there, I saw a bunch of girls sitting outside class, skipping class to be exact. They didn't even panic or whatsoever when they saw me. It just shows something lor. I looked into the class and I saw this teacher. This teacher was a teacher I used to disturb a lot and I skip her class very often. They were doing exactly the same thing as I did. When I saw them, it felt like I was looking at my old self. I knew I had to do something. I went there and tried talking to them and to get them back into class.

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Tuesday, 22 March 2016 ❛ Internship ❜ I started my internship in school for only 2 days and I already feel so much. I feel so emotionally challenged. My heart hurts, I don't even know why. My heart hurts for the students whom I don't even know their names. It just hurts. I just wanna share about this particular incident that happened today. Anyway, before I share. I went to look for the cleaner who used to clean my block's level 4!! I always remember talking to her about many things and its so nice to see her again!! Ok so after talking, we were walking to the canteen and while on our way there, I saw a bunch of girls sitting outside class, skipping class to be exact. They didn't even panic or whatsoever when they saw me. It just shows something lor. I looked into the class and I saw this teacher. This teacher was a teacher I used to disturb a lot and I skip her class very often. They were doing exactly the same thing as I did. When I saw them, it felt like I was looking at my old self. I knew I had to do something. I went there and tried talking to them and to get them back into class. Well, as you can see. I didn't even stand, look down and talk to them. I squat down and I want to talk to them as a friend and not as a teacher. I want to make them feel comfortable and maybe listen to me. I tried sharing how I used to skip class like them but they interrupted me and told me there's actually only 1 person being chased out of class. The rest of them are accompanying another girl who is going through issues in her life. I just somehow didn't know what to say, idek why. It always happens to me. I just told them not to skip any more and walked away after that. I only talked to the girl who has some issues after the bell rang. But I don't think that made much of a difference. I really should have asked the group of them to go back into class la ogmalfmakldjasljal. As a student, whenever I look back at my what I did. I would say I'm actually thankful for all that because it was fun and life would be quite boring without all those. But at the same time, I'm also thankful for teachers who continued to believe in me and tried to help me even though I kept rebelling. I know they are students and they wanna skip class etc. I want to be a teacher like how my teachers treated me but I just walked away :( WHAT WAS I DOING. It just feels weird being a teacher, maybe I just need to adapt faster. Well, it really breaks my heart because I see them wasting their life and they might end up regretting :( I was a student and honestly, it was fun but it was such a waste of time doing such stupid things. I was very clear on what I wanted to do when I'm here. To do well in PE classes and also be a friend to all students in whatever areas of their life. I personally feel I'm not doing well in both. Some people can say its only day 2, I should take it slow and improve slowly?? 2 days? well 2 days to be is a lot. 2 days means 2 wasted days. 2 days means I failed to help them a little bit more. 2 days means a lot. Maybe I'm too nice but I guess my way of approaching the issue was wrong. ahhhhh

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