It's been so long since I last blogged. It's 3am right now. I actually started this post at 2am but I lost everything so now I'm restarting but it probably won't be as good as the one I lost because I just lost some 'feel' so I'm gonna keep it short and simple :( just wanna talk about  some stuff about school.

Well hello, I came back from Ivy's house a few hours ago for CNY. After coming back home, thoughts of my 4 years spent in Bedok View just kept flooding my mind. These are wonderful memories but somehow its killing me. It's killing me because when I look back at myself, I see that I didn't appreciate. It kills me even more when I know that there's so much more that I could have done. What kills me the most is the fact that my journey in Bedok View has ended. I just really wish that there's a time machine that allows me to go back to those times and live it once again.

As you all can tell, I'm someone who loves going to school. I can never understand why some people would say things like ''I hate school'', '' Sian it's Monday tomorrow, school again'' or '' I love my friends but I hate school''. Does all these sound familiar to you? You have probably heard/ seen your friends saying this. Maybe you yourself did too. I have never felt sian of school until the olevels period. I have also never hated school. I love my friends and I love school too. Here's a question for you guys to think about,  Have you ever thought about why and how did you meet such awesome friends you are having right now? Most of you probably met them in school. So tell me now, how can you hate school and love your friends?

Bedok View is a really good school other than being budget, it will always have a special place in my heart even though I have so many offence slips and 4 strokes of the cane. Majority of the students like me will dislike school so much because it feels like the school is against you. Not for me because it really taught me something. At this place I found my passion, I see so many teachers who can change lives(one of them is on my insta), I found many great friends and lovely juniors who are like my xiao di and xiao mei.

Honestly, my sec 1,2 and 3 life in this school was just fun fun fun play all day rebel rebel rebel. I created trouble every year and so every year on the first day of the school my dad will actually tell me this '' It's a new year so please don't create trouble, I don't wish to receive any calls from the school''. Well, obviously I failed to stay out of those troubles haha. He was clearly upset and he kept some stuff from my mum till now just to prevent her from nagging and scolding me haha.

Anyway, I'm not sure if you guys know that I'm someone who lives with #NoRegrets because I feel that it has already happened, no point regretting . So yeah. I'm upset that I didn't treat some of my friends the way I should have been. I'm also upset that I didn't know all my juniors earlier and I didn't love them as much as I would right now. AIYA, these are actually my regrets la :(

Bedok View is also the place where I first have this real real hard to explain feelings for someone, I think it's called 'love'. It's also the place where I met my first girlfriend and even though we were together for a short while only, I will remember :)) In life there's always a first time right? :D. Not going to go into details about the relationship! Anw if you're reading this, I want to let you know that I'm so thankful to have met you, I'm serious!! It's so great that we're friends right now and we are still in contact. Thank God for this.

From this post, I just want you all to know about some stuff.
1. Please do not hate school. Remember that this is the place where you met your awesome friends. If you have no friends, think about how this place made you find your passion. If also don't have then think about how awesome the school food is. ALSO DONT HAVE?! Aiya then you can hate school.
2. If you are planning to create problems in school, don't think twice about it! Better think 9837491937 times. Parents will actually be really upset and heartbroken about it.
3. If there's teachers going against you and you are so angryyy. Don't fight him/her. Don't think that you can win because you can't, you can't win a civil servant. Don't act cool. Basically just shut up and avoid them. This is based on my experience, trust me on this PLEASE.
4. Appreciate and love your friends,juniors,seniors, teachers. When you think back about them and how you treated them. It actually hurts because you will realize there's so much you should have done.
5. Stop the hate and start the love. I have seen people disliking each other and some people getting stuck in between both sides. Well honestly, when you leave school and think back about the person you used to hate, you will actually realize it doesn't affect you anymore. So please please please stop the hate. It's ok if you don't wanna love, just stop the hate and lets all live in peace.

Lastly, wanna thank this people who made my secondary school life amazing. Thank you! Lots of love <3 Don't be upset if you don't see your name because I probably missed it out cos I'm super sleepy right now. Oh and it will be in random order.

Mirza WeiLiang JueYi CoachRoger SiJie Fatihah Jim L.KaiJie L.YanHui ChaowEr Kaiser Esther LiFuen Farhana ONGXinHui Ivy Ananda JasonLim DominiqueTan ChristopherLee LiHua Joseph JunHui Wahidah Rausyan MsEvelynTan MsPereira MsSong Dianah Liyana MrRidzwan MsGlendaChia MsJuma Nikky

I know there's still some people that should be in this list but I'm really tired.

Well basically I think I expressed 32% of the things I wanna talk about school. It is 5am now. 3 hours of blogging this. Please let me know that you appreciate my efforts(even if you don't like it). Whatsapp me, facebook message me, tweet me @happyfishz or just leave a comment on my Instagram photo. A simple message like "I saw your blog, it's good" actually makes my day. Thanks for reading :)