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HAPPYFISHZ; 快乐鱼



JingJie 19 // Athletics Faith. Focus. Finish	Awesomest	November 2012 December 2012 January 2013 February 2013 June 2013 August 2013 September 2013 February 2014 May 2014 August 2014 February 2015 March 2015 June 2015 August 2015 January 2016 February 2016 March 2016 July 2016 September 2016 July 2018

Monday, 15 June 2015 ❛ Going in Faith. ❜ '' In lane 2, Wong Jing Jie from Bedok View Secondary School.'' That was how the announcer introduced me for the 400m CBoys final back in 2011. Being the underdog of the race, there was no one to cheer for me except Coach Roger, Mrs Lena Tiu and Ms Glenda Chia. There wasn't even any of my friends as I was the only one running on that day. It was so silent, so so silent but it didn't matter. Deep inside of me, I was happy because I know that all the extra training, all the lactic acid training, all the vomiting, all the times where I ran out of breath during training was worth it. Ran the race with a strain hamstring and was in a bad psychological state but I still came in 4th with a new PB. I guess I was a lil disappointed knowing I could have done better but at the same time I knew what abilities I had and I was just excited to see what I could do in the future. I never had any talents since young. I spent so much time on tuition and I got an average PSLE score. I was always getting into trouble and doing stupid things. I simply couldn't do anything. I was so happy to be on the track because I realize I have a talent in running. A talent, finally hahah. I started to have a dream,a huge dream. That was the only talent I had so I guess my dream and expectations for it was really high. I started dreaming of being in the national team in the next 10 years, I dreamt of running for Singapore in the ongoing SeaGames. I dreamt of the 400m national record. Well oh well, these are all dreams AHHAHA. Really funny thinking about it but that's all I can dream about because that's the only thing I had. If you're wondering how much love I have for track, you should just read this . In the post, I said, ''But the reason why I'm able to bring out a smile now is because of running. It gives me a reason to smile, it reminds me that I have a dream to live and work towards it. '' Anyway, this few months has been rather tough for me. Not just for track but my life and my spiritual life. My life has been a lil messed up with so many things happening in school and having to balance it with training. Even though it was a lil messed up, it didn't really affect me. What really affected me was my spiritual life, I was dry spiritually and I just didn't feel good. I knew what was wrong but it just wasn't working out. So for the past few weeks, I decided to make a lil more effort as I was so desperate and hungry to hear from God. Well, after so long, I finally heard something from God and He told me to lay down my dreams of running. I was confused and I was lost. I mean its the only talent I have, if I give it up then I'm useless and I can't live my dream. If I give it up, I seriously have nothing. But then I remember telling myself the day before, ''God, one word and I will follow. One word. '' I just knew it's God and I have to follow. I don't know what's going to happen next. I don't know what I'm going to do. A lil afraid but excited to see what's gonna happen. Verse of the season for me, Deuteronomy 31:8 ''Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Oh well, lost and confused but I wanna be a man of convictions and I'm gonna have faith that God will bring me to higher grounds and bigger breakthroughs in my life. Right now, I will just continue training and to prepare for my last race ( for now) . Believing that it's not the end, one day I'll pick it up to glorify God again. Maybe when I'm 35/40/45. To the people who have always supported, encouraged me and to the people who tell me how much I inspire them. I just wanna say I'm sorry to disappoint, the comeback isn't happening but I honestly believe that greater things are gonna happen. I do hope to inspire you guys in another way.

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